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Wednesday, February 12, 2014

new mommy know it alls: Stuff no one told me/12 trade secrets

these are the things no one really told me or that I didn't see any one mention on any blog or pin I saw.. these are trade secrets of the new mother. these are things that I learned first hand and that I figured out. Again, this blog is called according 2 me... so im happy to share my experience and my point of view with you... here we go...

1. you do NOT have to swaddle...
My lovely husband and I read up on all the five s's, watched the happiest baby on the block DVD, practiced swaddling in our infant care classes, bought tons of swaddles, bought pre made velcro swaddles... you get the picture. we were ready to swaddle that baby to sweet zzz's... except... when it came to actually swaddle him.. i really felt no need. he just loved being in my arms and when i put him in the cacconababy, he felt so snuggled that just folding the blanket in a half assed swaddle and tucking it into the cacconababy was perfect. Red Castle's Cacoonababy is still my number one newborn must have (tied with the snuza hero). Just do what you feel is natural for you and your baby.. follow your gut. which brings me to my next point...

2. Attachment Parenting (AP) is instinctual parenting... not a trend of parenting.
The other night a woman who knows i'm a vegan who does things mostly the natural way asked me if i was following the AP style.. as if it was a "trend" that fit through her idea of my "hippy" ways. I never meant to follow nor did i mean to not follow AP. Do i wear my baby? yes. Do i breastfeed my baby? yes. Do i sleep with my baby? of course. I don't do these things out of following a trend.. I do them because they are my natural instincts as a mother. AP style parenting is really just instincual parenting and when you realize that you are able to see how much everything youve heard or seen is really just "social parenting" (my term for parenting that you learned socially from society)  and that you need to unlearn that to parent the way nature intends and the way you already know how to parent. you don't need a fancy stroller, baby monitors, a big ol expensive crib, those are tools of the "social parent".. forget society's way of telling you how to parent (and how to spend $ learning to be one...) and just parent.. you already know how.

A baby comes out ALMOST completely helpless. they cant even soothe themselves to sleep... they have no idea how digestion works (and every burp or fart is an ordeal)... HELL... even their own arms scare them. how could you leave this tiny little human in another room in a big ol crib? when they are right there next to you, you can pick up on the few things they know how to do, like aim for the boob for example. my son starts moving his head left and right opening his mouth in an effort to find his food source, aka my boob. babyies don't cry to communicate.. they cry when they are already frustrated because their needs are not being met. had i left my baby in another room i would not have noticed his silent motions (his way of communicating) for food and would have only picked up on his hunger when he started crying all stressed out... when he had already given up on his ways of communicating.
Wearing my baby is the same thing. they want to be close to you. they want to feel secure and they want you be there front and center to care for them. and while i love my big beautiful fancy stroller, i much prefer my ergo, which by the way puts my baby to sleep instantaneously. (you still need a stroller fyi)
these are all just instincts for me... keep my baby close so i can care for him... feed him the way G-d designed nature to do so and let my baby be attached because well, he's a baby!

3. Onsies
Onsies are completely useless for the first few weeks of life and completely essential for the weeks after. In those initial weeks you'll have a tummy stump to protect and a peepee to protect (assuming circumcision) and onsies will be a no go. I couldnt use any onsies until around week four... his stump was still healing into week 2/3 and since we are jewish his circumcision didnt happen until week 2. so... what you WILL need are lots and lots of....

4. Long sleeve shirts.
Kimono style long sleeve shirts with built in mittens are an absolute essential for a newborn. Get a ton. I ordered two packs of the gerber long sleeve ones and one pack of the short sleeve to wear under long sleeve footsies. get them on...

Amazon is your best friend. they have everything cheaper on Amazon... MOST of the time.. but not always. download the amazon app and you can literally scan an item at the store and see how much it is and compare it with wherever you are. the other day i went to target and had two carts... one in front of me and the other on my phone in my amazon app. i ended up only buying three of the ten or so things on my list at target and the rest i scanned and added to my cart on amazon. with prime i get it in two days and dont pay shipping,.. most of the time i can wait two days for anything. and many times it comes in one day or if i do end up buying it in the store cuz i "needed it right away" i dont even end up using it for a few days anyway. go figure.

6. Toys r Us
TRU is completely useless. everything is more expensive and they carry a shit selection. register on Amazon, Buy Buy Baby (where you can use all those Bed Bath Coupons) and shop online. i love alexandalexa for designer clothes and overseas brands i love and albee baby has great deals on top brands that are usually cheaper than amazon. buy buy baby price matches however so if you love the brick and mortar get it today kind of shopping then find the best price online and show them to get it for the same price :)

7.Get a convertible car seat
Skip the infant car seat. you do NOT need it! you don't want your baby sitting in the same seat in the same position all day long. its not healthy. take them out and put them in a carrier. even if they wake up momentarily, they will be right back asleep the second you put them in the carrier. don't be afraid of waking the baby...

8. shhhhhh the baby is sleepping
babies in the womb feel secure and cuddled and hear you allllll day and night long. they have your heart beating 24/7 your digestion going, your music blaring, your voice chit chatting... they love the noise, it's soothing. again, avoid social parenting in which you unteach your child to love the noise and teach them to sleep in silence. (and then later try to unteach this)  this isnt good for you nor baby. our son has slept through countless action movies right there on my tummy. no need to put him in a crib in another room and say shhhhh put it down the baby is sleeping!!

9. it is OK to use disposables.
sometimes cloth diapering is not feasible for financial, practical or lifestyle reasons. it is OK to use disposables. you can argue that a cloth diapering service has the same footprint of using eco friendly biodegradable diapers with all the gas electricity and water they use. and as far as using cloth to help potty train... you can still practice EC with disposables... you'll just keep your sanity in tact just that much longer. is OK to use a pacifier.
listen... i live in los angeles. sometimes there is a fuck load of traffic and sometimes you are on the fwy going 75 when your baby gets startled and starts screaming. enter the pacifier... THANK YOU G-D!!!! just don't rely on using it when you are around... if he needs to suck on something to sooth then let him feed, the combo of the milk and sucking will sooth him asap and then theres less chance of nipple confusion or just trying to solve the symptoms and not the actual problem

11. Not all diapers are created equal.
Make sure your diaper has the back scrunch elastic part or else they are useless. a mom i follow on instagram kept expressing how much she love these brand of diapers and so without knowing much i ordered them before the baby came. they are useless. without the back scrunch everything goes up the back... yeah... exactly. try multiple brands in the beginning. you dont know which fit your baby will like best. avoid at all costs diapers with toxins and keep dry technocology. again, that is another way you are social parenting in which you are unteaching your child what is natural and then later will try to teach them again the natural way. let me clarify... with diapers, this means unteaching them that peeing and pooing on themselves is uncomfortable, unhygenic and to be avoided ( as you teach them when you use a diaper that soaks up all the pee and they barely notice they went) and so in essence you are teaching them that going to the bathroom on yourself is okay only to later try to go through hell and high water (or wtvr the expression is) to potty train them. how confusing for them. all mammals are born with an innate sense to avoid and hate defecating on themselves... use that to your advantage and pick up on your babys cues of when they are going. if you are baby wearing and co sleeping then this will be easy. (hell- its how i potty trained my dog....) this is EC (elimination communication).

12. your gut.
at the end of the day, it doenst matter what i or even your mother or doctor say... follow your gut and youll be the best parent you can be.



Monday, January 27, 2014


On instagram :) posting tips etc on there.. much easier than blogging all the time but ill still post on here . Just put up my sakura bloom n maya wrap  review.


Sunday, January 12, 2014

cows, movies, and jeans that don't fit.

Why are my blogs becoming so personal? Idk why I'm in such an introspective blog mood but i hope to return to the regularly scheduled programming soon enough.

Now that I'm breastfeeding my choice to not consume dairy has become even more significant. I know what being pregnant and feeding my baby feels like.. I can't even imagine the misery of being forcefully artificially impregnated over and over again my whole life with my babies being taken away from me at birth to be murdered and my breastmilk stolen for another species consumption. I really don't see how there's room for G-d in such corruption nor how he'd bless such practices. Maybe somehow the way it was done back in the day was more natural.. but today it's anything but.

I've seen way too many movies these past few weeks. Something about lack of sleep and breastfeeding constantly makes watching movies the ideal set up. I don't have TV nor watch TV (TV is for lazy people and hypocrites. I myself being the latter as I still somehow manage to watch the shitty housewives show online. Lazy no but moron for watching... check!).

So far my favorites of probably 100 ive seen (since my injury not my son's birth) are...

The Family
Crazy Stupid Love
Friends with Kids
That's My Boy
The Great Gatsby
O Brother Where Art Thou
And a movie I watch over n over... The Proposal (yes I am a girl)

Excited to watch the Wolf of Wallstreet .. just got the screener and need to watch,  Jonah Hill and Leo? Um yes please.

Now here we go... This week is week six and I'm looking forward to hearing from the doc that I'm ready to work out. I've been going on long walks and carrying my now over ten pound baby constantly so I've been active but I'm looking forward to actually working it. I work out for the joy of working out.. I know I'm lucky in that regard... most ppl hate it but do it to look good or for health and view it as a necessary evil but I truly love it.. and I think most consistently fit ppl do. Meaning I believe that people who have been consistently in shape over most of their life (not skinny... In shape) are doing something they love to get that way and hence stick w it and it becomes part of their lifestyle. That's the trick.

I don't do the gym although I used to love spin classes to the point i bought cycling shoes. I used to practice yoga and pilates for years but I stopped pilates about three years ago when I joined the world of Tracy Anderson. I grew up swimming competitively and dancing. Before I got pregnant I worked out six times a week... it was just part of my daily routine and the day off always made me feel... off... but almost always came on Sunday and was too busy with trips to the farmers market etc and to visit family. I did TAM dance cardio a few times a week and the workouts everyday of the 6 days. I also did yoga on top of that (I look at yoga as a practice not a work out- altho it sure is 1 hell of a work out - so I don't count it ).

This was my body prior to pregnancy :

Here are some pregger photos...

This was at 10 days pp:

So I'll take a new pic on day one of working out which should be next Monday.  

I made the unwise and unfortunate decision to try on my jeans the other day and sadly did not fit in any of them. I was able to button one of them but it looked unflattering. So I'm Def not anywhere close to my usual 25/26. I've only worn leggings and the like so no idea on  current size.. I have no idea of my current weight or inches as i don't own a scale nor plan on owning one.. I use the good old fashioned mirror to tell me if I'm healthy or not. Right now the mirror says hello new mom body. I'm totally happy with my current body and love what it gave me more than any thing in the world, especially my old body... however.. I miss feeling in shape and in control of my body so I'm looking forward to that.

It's going to be tricky getting in shape while breastfeeding. I'm already a vegan and try to eat 70 percent raw and avoid gluten so my calories aren't that high (seeing I consume mostly vegetables and fruits). I've been eating about 50 percent raw now and incorporating a lot of grains beans etc to make sure I'm eating more calories. My milk supply has been plentiful and I thank G-d daily for blessing me with an easy time breastfeeding.

But now that I'm interested in incorporating my old exercise routines I am a little worried about burning too many calories... so I will be eating the same 50 50 but will add a high calorie protein  smoothie after all my work outs and add to my meals higher calorie options..  for example I'll be using coconut and cashew milk as the base of my smoothies instead of my usual soy, coconut water or water. I'm looking forward to how rich they will be yummmmm.

I plan to breastfeed for quite some time so I'll get the hang of all of this eventually and will post my findings.

As far as the workouts go I'll probably start with doing the post pregnancy TAM workouts and start practicing my yoga daily. Looking forward to incorporating Ryber into my fitness ;) I'll update with that too.

I'm obsessed with my son and being a mom... it's the funnest coolest thing EVER haha. I find myself staring at him and saying to myself "this is the best moment of my life" constantly. Ahhh it truly is so fucking magical.. If u r a mom u get it.. and if not I hope u will, it's a priceless feeling.

We've instincually become a breastfeeding bed sharing baby wearing EC family and I wouldn't have it any other way. More on that later.

Till next time...


Wednesday, December 18, 2013

my postpartum vacation ... a nomadic self awareness journey

My loyal readers,

I am bidding a long awaited farewell to Facebook and television.

i will be going on a mental nomadic journey over the next few months. you can say it's a part time journey... as nomadic adventures will occur between nappy changes, dinners with my husband and runs to the farmers market and whole foods. i imagine my dinners will be a lot more interesting now as i will either be overly enthusiastic about my discoveries or unexpectedly quiet with peace and self awareness. guess my husband is in for a treat.

im looking forward to taking advantage of these next few months to go back to the things that make me who i am. an artist. a photographer. a writer. a songwriter. an advocate. a student. a lover of life.  a passionate woman. a curious soul.

before i met my husband i was 24/7 indulging in such a journey of self discovery and of life. i was 19, a senior in college (although ironically I did not actually graduate until years later) spending my days in the dark room and my nights making too much money casting for tv/film (aka being paid to party w the whos who). i was also admittedly in a state of depression.. but the sadness inspired me, as it often does to passionate souls. it was actually a very fond time when i reflect now.. a time that really prepared me for the serious years to come. what followed was a new journey of a different sort of passion i was unfamiliar with: unconditional love. i met my soul mate (who then turned my days n nights into video game and love making marathons) , adopted a new member of our family ( who is cuter than your dog i promise) and birthed my biggest accomplishment in life: my son, Ryber. since then ive been preoccupied with my adventure of unconditional love (minus a 5 month hiatus i took three years ago).

the main reason my husband and i wanted to have a child (especially now in our mid twenties) was because we felt we had an overwhelming amount of love between us to share. we wanted to have a child to share that unconditional love. and now that we have accomplished this dream, i feel this adventure is complete (although one could argue it has just begun).

i plan on updating this blog with my findings, assuming i am inspired to do so. and possibly
my instagram @shirdhorn
i will most likely still visit pinterest, so you can find me on there as well.
if you are interested in doing a photo shoot with me, email me at
photoshoots are free and i will give images when appropriate. please note i am not doing shoots as a service, meaning im not offering to take your headshots or newborn photos. however, if i do find your family or whatever subject you chose interesting and inspiring, you can use the images however you wish ( headshots, christmas cards etc) but they are for artistic purposes mainly. if you have a commercial interest you can email me there as well.
if you are interested in sending me a message, go ahead an leave a comment on here. i do not publish my comments. i read them, but keep them private. if you wish for a response please leave a way to contact you. im not trying to make my blog into some big thing with a community of blah blah blah. honestly, i find comments discouraging to other readers, both positive and negative feedback. its as if you just finished a film and instead of processing you heard every other audience member's take. no thanks.

so there it is.

for now...


Monday, December 16, 2013

My Labor Story and Newborn Essentials ... my first week home w/ RBZH

Hi my lovely readers,
It finally came, the eminent day of labor and delivery. My labor started Monday night as mild contractions I dismissed as Braxton Hicks. Shortly after at around 2 a.m I woke up knowing I was beginning labor. I had my doubts but my contractions were 4 minutes apart for hours, so I knew it had to finally be it! The contractions were manageable so I stuck at home and labored for hours... going from the birthing ball to the tub to leaning on my husband (which I did the most and helped the most). I strongly suggest having positions with your significant other planned out. My husband was a major part of the success of my labor and delivery. The natural oxytocin you get from being touchy with the one you love makes a huge difference,  at least it did for me. I am tremendously blessed to have him as my partner in life. :)

Sometime in the afternoon my back labor started and my contractions were still 4 minutes apart but were now a lot stronger and a lot longer. I'm glad I stuck around home for so long... They say to go in when your contractions are four to five minutes apart but mine were like that from the start. They just got more intense and built up from 30 to 90 seconds in length. Once my back labor began (which I was naive to think I wouldn't get because baby was in the right position for weeks) it was all over for me. The intense contractions I was able to handle but the back labor was out of this world. It felt like a big man was kicking my back full force and constantly... not with any breaks like contractions.
At that point I made going to the hospital my number one priority before anything. It was very primal... get me to the hospital now!!!!!
As soon as I got to the hospital I was screaming for an epidural. My back was on fire. I was on the ground waiting for an L&D room and cursing. Haha. Looking back it's funny but if you knew just how much I wanted to avoid any type of intervention or augmentation to my labor you would understand just how much pain I was in. I want to note that the contractions were the worst pain of my life besides the back pain and I was able to breath through them.. so if it was not for the back pain I would have continued without an epidural. I say this because I don't want anyone reading this to be discouraged to have a natural delivery sans pain meds because of my story. You CAN get through the contractions, the break you get in between makes it possible. I hope I don't get back labor next time so I can try again.
The reason I'm sharing my story even though it's extremely personal and intimate, and I'm not one to want to share some thing so sacred... is because of this next part. If I help even only one person with this part of my story than I feel I shared with a purpose.
As soon as I got my epidural around 4\5 pm my contractions that were 4 minutes apart since two a.m had now spaced out to 10 minutes. This was awful. After 2 hours (in which I felt totally fine and even called a friend) and very heavy tingly legs later my doc comes in worried that my labor has not progressed and I was still only at 4 ish cm. Then the Pitocin bomb dropped and I almost had a heart attack. I couldn't believe it was happening to me... the whole reason I avoided an epidural was to avoid pitocin, and here I was being told it was the best way to go at this point in my labor. Now, I love my doctor and understand now he was presenting options to me so I wouldn't have to be in labor longer than I (not he) wanted. But at that moment it felt like pressure and caused me anxiety. My doc already let me go to 41 weeks and was allowing me to wait till 42 to induce so i was apprehensive that he was advocating I try pitocin. He also gave me the option to go home and come back but I knew the same thing would just happen again as I was 4 min apart for hours until the epidural. So that was pointless. Another option was to break my water in which if unsuccessful in progressing my labor would now increase my chance in infection therefore putting a time limit on delivery and increasing my chances of having to take pitocin or deliver via Cesarean.  The last option, the one my husband and I advocated,  was to wait. And so we did. My doc said we'd reopen the discussion in 2 hours to give me time to think about the time line of labor I (not he) wanted and hopefully to let my labor progress. This is what I hope everyone takes away from this that will labor one day, you must be your own advocate.. dont feel pressure to make any decisions on the spot. During the 2 hours we decided we'd let the dr know  we wanted to wait till morning to discuss augmentation further had I not progressed. We focused on breathing and relaxing and letting go of the tension the Pitocin discussion caused. We prayed, we held each other, we prayed some more.. Again, my husband proved to be the best labor partner I could have asked for.

Well Gd answered my prayers and being my own advocate and not letting any one rush me into decision making was the sole reason  i got the labor i wanted. Two hours later and my nurse had informed me my water broke and I was now 7 cm!!! (Remember I was numb waist down so didn't feel the water). I knew something was going on because despite the epidural my back pain was returning and with a vengeance.  They offered to up my epidural but I was not willing to risk any further changes to how my body was naturally progressing. So in the end I felt my back pain, which speaks volumes as to the intensity as I can't imagine how they would have felt at that point without the epidural if they were so very painful with it. Very shortly after I told my nurse I was feeling a new pressure and she dismissed it saying I couldn't possibly be ready to push. So she checked me and not only was I the full 10 cm, but baby was on his way out at +2 station. She called my doc to come and told me to wait to push until he gets here. 15 minutes later I'm wondering where the hell is my doc.. (the irony was that they were waiting for me to progress and in the end i had to wait for them to push) nurse informs me not to worry as first time moms take at least an hour to get used to pushing.  And at least another to push the baby  out. My doc then comes in the room, looks at me and says ok baby will be here very soon!, a few pushes and you're gonna b ba mommy! No joke, SEVEN minutes later my son was born. I pushed for only 7 minutes... again , ignore everyone n listen to yr body.
Becoming a mom was an incredible out of this world experience that you only get once becoming a mother yourself. Words dont do it justice.. you must experience it for yourself to understand.

My Newborn Essentials/Favorites...
So far at only a week and a half in and these are already standouts and all I'm using. Couldn't imagine doing this without these:

Soft bottom cloths and disposable diaper changing pads...

You don't want to use any wipes on your newborn baby so these super soft cloths with some warm water do the trick. The hospital gives you some but these are way softer. As for the changing pads, you WILL need these, and these are super soft and convenient.


Don't know wtf I would have done without this... my absolute newborn essential.

Snuza hero

My second absolute newborn essential... peace of mind for 100 bucks? Yes please.

Organic Ergo w organic infant insert

When walking around outside the house w baby, always use a carrier of some sort for ages security and safety. My baby was too small for the moby yet so we have yet to try it but so far the ergo w the insert has been a dream. So glad I got both.

Newborn diapers

Make sure they are newborn... you'll have a stump you want to protect and size one will be too big. We liked honest company for the beginning... They fit the best. We now alternate between honest size 1 and bambo.

Nose Frida
Newborn congestion is no joke. This saved us a few times already.

Kissy kiss gowns n hats

Super soft and convenient convertible footsies to gowns. Ryber wore one to his bris.

Baby soy organic footsies

Luxuriously soft and super cute. We love the different animal prints without being kid clothing corny n the kimono styles.

Swaddle Designs organic collection
My favorite swaddles/receiving blankets by far. They're large organic and super soft. We got Ryber's name embroidered on one for the bris.
The organic towel is so soft and we love the hat. We haven't used the lovie yet but it's so soft and cuddly.

Nursing bra
Get many. I like the bravado and the motherhood maternity ones although I'm yet to find one that fits a size 32 band better.

Was avoiding this but got as a gift. Turns out be much much better than the other ones I wanted. I use it all day long at every feed. We got the organic cover.

My favorite spots in L.A for baby gear :
1. The Pump Station... Soft bottom cloths, diaper changing pads, newborn manicure kit, bath sponge scrub brush, nursing bras, toys, honest co products, swaddles, cloth diapers/burp cloths, also offers classes which we enjoyed.
2. Bel Bambini... glider, designer BABY clothes, crib, stroller, Etc
3. BUY BUY baby .. EVERYTHING else under the sun you'll need... Bath tub, nursing pillow, nosefrida, all the misc baby items etc. Can use bed bath non expired coupons here on most items!

So I'll be posting my get back in shape journey too. Here's step 1.... just breastfeeding n eating a lot of healthy vegan n mostly wheat free food and started to walk today on day 12 pp. Xx

P.s... There was an error uploading those 4 videos so I'll fix that when I get a second. Xx

Thursday, November 21, 2013

My Mad Hatter Tea Party Baby Shower + Update

Hi readers!
So I'm currently 39 weeks pregnant and feeling very anxious for baby to arrive. I'm actually really looking forward to labor which sounds odd to some but I see it as one of the most spiritual holiest moments of my life that will offer me a connection to G-d, my body, my mind and my baby unlike any other. Plus, fearing it is pointless as it's both inevitable and counterproductive. Going into labor in fear puts your body in fight or flight mode, not the most most productive state to be in for labor. On the other hand, having a relaxed state of mind releases chemicals in your body that actually help labor move along and alleviate some of the pain (chemicals that your body naturally will release during labor if not in stressed out fight or flight mode). Now, seeing this is my first go at this, I'm sure it's much much easier said than done.. however, i feel having the confidence in my body's natural ability to labor beforehand will be a significant tool in helping me create the peaceful state of mind I am aiming for. we shall see!

So I made FOUR videos for you guys yesterday... yes... FOUR!!! i was on a roll. They are taking forever to upload though so I am hoping to have them up as soon as they are done and more so prior to going into labor haha

In the meantime, here are the details of my baby shower that I promised. My shower was hosted by my mother and sister along with my mother and sister in law. It was such an honor for them all to collaborate to bring me the shower that I dreamed of. I've always wanted a mad hatter tea party theme and they did it all on their own... completely exceeding my expectations. I had a blast and very very much appreciate having such lovely women in my life that will go so BEYOND for me. It was also really great to be able to leave the house as I was on bed rest for months unfortunately. So all in all, a HUGE success. thanks again to you lovely women xo


Monday, September 9, 2013

update on life @29 wks...

hi all!

preparing for baby has become a full time job that im loving! only thing i'm not loving is that i also work a full time job hahaha, but it's more exciting than anything.

we've done a few furniture purchases for the baby lately which really makes it feel real... when you're walking around the house and you're like oh... hi new baby stuff.... we also have a pile growing high of baby things and it's not even the shower yet!!! all i have to say to that is.. BARUCH HASHEM!!

One of my favorite new furniture purchases is our Dutailier White Leather Glider with the matching ottoman. it is CRAZY comfortable. We went to Bel Bambini on Robertson here in L.A to try out all the different types of gliders, and it was by far our favorite. We knew within minutes it was the ONE. We didn't like the 8-12 week wait but of course, we found our way around that ;) so I've been making use out of it already, and i recently bought a beautiful SUPER SUPER soft creamy dew color throw to cozy up on in it and a really really comfortable black and white patterned pillow. You can see the gliders we tried by clicking the Bel Bambini link above or the company we chose by clicking the dutailier link.

custom white on white Dutailier leather glider

We also got a fabulous white dresser with EIGHT drawers, four little ones across the top and two rows of two big drawers. perfect to organize all of his cute little things. we chose to go cheap here because we are hoping to move soon and didn't want to invest in a piece of furniture that might not fit the style of our new house. i found the perfect one at Ikea and so we drove to Burbank and now Avi's putting it together :) We're going to mount the changing pad on top so it'll double as a dresser and changing table. another reason I love all the little drawers, because they'll stash all the diapers and changing supplies we'll need to be handy. 

Ikea white dresser for baby
We also got a cute white cabinet for all the puppies things so we don't mix dog things with baby things. Even though I use only all natural human grade vegan products and food on my pup, I still like to keep it all separated and organized. 

In just two weeks we'll have my baby shower and I'm over the moon excited. My mom, MIL, sister, and SIL's are throwing it for me and it's a huge relief not to have to plan it... i know traditionally the expecting mother doesn't but i love throwing parties so was excited to do it... but as i mentioned, everything has been very very busy for us and i know how taxing it is to plan and throw a party while pregnant ( i threw a gender reveal at 22 weeks ) so i can't imagine having to host the shower now so I am beyond grateful and relieved to have such loving family want to throw one in my honor. i've always wanted to do a tea party shower and so i'm really excited they decided to throw me a very merry un-baby shower, which is a play on the un-birthday party the mad hatter hosted in alice in wonderland. this is the invitation, although it was printed on cream color paper so it didn't look quite like this... but i made the background cream ish so you can tell... also obviously the address etc is blocked out, that's not part of it haha

my un-baby shower mad hatter tea party invitation

so excited!!! so now we are just doing tons and tons of things to prep for baby. this weekend we're going to hang some new curtains and mount our TV which we never did and the TV is soooo freakin heavy but today my dad surprised us and got us a mount capable of doing what we want with the weight of our tv so i'm happy we don't have to shop for that now haha. 

Recently we watched The Happiest Baby on the Block and it was AMAZING. I can't wait to try these techniques on our baby!! There's a book too and the Pump Station in Santa Monica offers a class, which we are taking next month. Speaking of classes, we are signed up for a TON!! both at Cedars Sinai where we are delivering and at the Pump Station so we are trying to get all the home stuff done so when the classes begin we won't have as much to do... although i know that's NOT going to happen haha. 

amazing movie... MUST WATCH for new parents

the next big items to get for the baby are the car seat (muy importante!), the stroller, and the crib. We are going to be using a co-sleeper for the first few months and haven't put our finger on exactly which one we want yet, but we'll be using the Red Castle Cacoonababy, which I'm really excited to get. We're planning on getting the Uppababy Vista stroller, the Recaro Performance Ride Convertible Car Seat and a crib we have not yet decided on!! I also already have the Marc by Marc Diaper bag, and will probably get another diaper bag, to be able to switch etc. We're also choosing Organic everything as much as possible. 

Recaro Performance Ride. Recaro is a pioneer is seat safety, they do race cars, airplanes etc. you can read more about them and their car seats here:

My diaper bag that I've been using to haul all my things while traveling for the past year. Now I get to use the diaper pad it came with! haha

4 Moms Mommaroo, excited to use this guy.

pregger update:

How far along?  29 weeks
Size of Baby? Baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel.

Total weight gain:  A LOT.

Best moment this week: Spending the holidays with family, and just general excitement about the new year and new baby. 
Miss anything? coffee, not having heartburn, being able to exercise a lot.. especially dance cardio.
Movement: He won't stop moving, I feel blessed. I'm amazed every single time how big the movements are.
Food cravings: frozen chocolate milks (i use caff free cocoa powder and add protein poweder) and frosted mini wheats (the organic kind, not name brand)
Anything making you queasy or sick: everything gives me heartburn. 
Gender: little baby boy <3 div="">
Symptoms: the back pain is getting better, i got one of those maternity bands, and as I mentioned before, heartburn. 
Belly button in or out? In

Stretch marks? Thank G-d no. 
Wedding rings on or off? Still on, and no sign of them having to come off anytime soon.
Happy or moody most of the time: been happy the whole pregnancy... no moodiness, thank G-d! My husb is grateful for that one.. haha. 

Me and my husband in the exact spot we said I DO.. can't believe this is almost a year ago....

can't believe this was a year ago... designing my custom veil..
a few weeks ago at 26 wks

first vacation after baby.... DEF hawaii, can't wait to go back.... after our annual ski trip in UT of course.